Last Modified: 20223-01-11
there was a promise behind your words that gave them flight. now, they are just lost feathers in the dirt; and you, an ordinary man in greed, unkindness, pity. we had a place, a shelter from the ugly world. you ran away. i understood. i never thought you how to fly. i wish your heart was braver.
January, 2023
all the same. friend=lover=parenthesis=on/off doll
December, 2022
Unsettled. I used to be sad and it tormented me but it was warm and had depth where i can play and indulge my needy nature. now I'm empty, only a shell... As if I've left and I can no longer find me. and I don't want to play no more.
People that have lost, grieve. imagine the grief if one's never had? how do we trespass it?
November 2022
we eat my birthday cake without spoons or forks. you let me lick the tips of your fingers before you run them down my skin to moistness. you kiss my mouth as I melt in its sweetness.
August 2022
I crave the sweetness of your lips,
I long to touch them with my fingers gently,
to part them, feel your breath,
the moistness of your loving mouth.
I soak the softness in your eyes,
I long to draw them with my sadness shyly,
to descend them, feel your thirst,
the goodness of your loving mind.
I dream the lustiness of your arms,
I long to know them with my soul unwisely,
to tie them, feel your pain,
the hardness of your loving body.
August 2022
hi, baby. I know my spot is in the corner, speaking only when spoken to, but I'm starved. I know you are desperate for a breather and you are doing the best you can but I'm struggling in the dark. You don't want to talk to me, that is fine. I understand. Just know it affects me in ways beyond my grasp. I need some warmth.
Feb 2022
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No friends. I am no friend. Nobody is care free no more. I need. To be unloading. Listened to when I am quiet. Touch me.
[IG], 2014
[IG], 2014
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Even when I don't want it to, my body remembers you and my mind is unable to stop the craving. It spirals and just hangs in the present looking for you, wanting you, with every breath I take.
[IG], 2013
[IG], 2013
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My lips hold memories of you that overwhelm me. I lick them and I think of you; the mirrors blush by the desire. It arouses me ever so gently. It is 5am. The taste of you lingers in my mind.
[IG], 2012
[IG], 2012
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Inside the glass, the cheers,
the gulps of bitter and the aftertaste:
a spark - without past nor future -
Let life go on without us.
[IG], 2012
the gulps of bitter and the aftertaste:
a spark - without past nor future -
Let life go on without us.
[IG], 2012
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Sizzled, every bit of me, to please you,
be fingered, lipped, consumed -
leave no morsel on the bed.
[IG], 2012
be fingered, lipped, consumed -
leave no morsel on the bed.
[IG], 2012
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Did you really leave without saying good night? If I had a heart, I would be looking at its broken crystals refracting the beauty of the moment in so many teary sighs : ) Oh, life!
[IG], 2011
[IG], 2011
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Long flight, mind shift, flashes of landscape,
the smell of burn memories somewhere behind,
ahead - unchartered sweetness; home in.
[IG], 2011
the smell of burn memories somewhere behind,
ahead - unchartered sweetness; home in.
[IG], 2011
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You're quiet. It's a quieter world.
The butterflies rave inside me...
The drug is sweet, sweeter, BANG
[IG], 2011
The butterflies rave inside me...
The drug is sweet, sweeter, BANG
[IG], 2011
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Raw. Heart. Yours beat, I dance.
Claws. Eager. Mine scratch, you ache.
Touching. Stories. Ours free form, we prey.
[IG], 2010
Claws. Eager. Mine scratch, you ache.
Touching. Stories. Ours free form, we prey.
[IG], 2010
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The scent of straw and pines, dry heat,
My being lusts for your greedy gaze,
Caress - aAAH! ...It is so quiet.
The forest beams.
[IG], 2010
My being lusts for your greedy gaze,
Caress - aAAH! ...It is so quiet.
The forest beams.
[IG], 2010
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Wow. Life. Even if you're thirsty it can be overwhelming. Life is made to be consumed. There is no elated meaning to it. It's folklore.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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Another day off my skin. I feel the sun dying in the night. A thousand stars light in my eyes. I lay in bed.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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Here I am. You are beside me. No need for a dream. Life, we should take in big gulps. Are we out of time? Are we out of space? The dimension we can discover is limiteless. You are my wings, I am your air; we fly. Away? Towards the end of the universe. There we'll dive. Looking for pearls. Finding each other. We discover. Death? Defeat of the evil. We create beautiful things. Describing the world. Repeating a pattern. We live. Scared? In love, no boundaries are possible. Creating life. Envisioning the future. For ever best friends.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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Happiness is for losers : ) I am not looking for happiness. Life is bigger than that. I hardly remember any dreams. Even the ones that repeat themselves. No memory. Everything lies in the future. So does death. Do you see the beauty of that. Nothing can scare me now. I control the fear. Thus, I can run free. Be pure and wild : ) Maybe. But not without you.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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How do you spell my name? Did you put a question mark? Did you think one knows my name? Do I need a name to exist? If I do not have a name I am free and very lonely. So lonely that I do not have a name. Call me and I will be yours.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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At the crossroad, I look around. I see you smiling at me. The sun is shining. We don't know the way. You are scared. I reach for your hand. We touch. It is warm. The sky is blue. I see it in your eyes. You take off your sunglasses. The grass is green. My feet are bare. I feel the dew. I gulp the tears. It is quiet. We are alone. You think that we are lost. You wonder whether you should be scared. I am calm. You embrace me. I kiss you back. There is a flower and a cherry tree. Blossoming. It's spring. The wind rushes by. My hair is in the air. Your curls tickle me. I laugh. You look at me. I look back. I love you.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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So what do you think? Do I believe in happiness? Can I catch a moment and keep it? What makes a moment? Are moments the same? Why do they feel different? Does a river have a beginning and an end?
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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Blue, look around you. Do you see us? Are we happy? I dive into your eyes and feel free. No wings attached. I run in flight. Fly high and smile. Happy. It is frightening to hear the wind messing up my hair. But I can taste the freedom invade my body and I become eternal in you.
Stop. Can you feel it? I can almost touch it now. Love no longer transparent but morphing and warping in colors and sounds. Growing bigger and calmer. Thank you!
[IG], 2007
Stop. Can you feel it? I can almost touch it now. Love no longer transparent but morphing and warping in colors and sounds. Growing bigger and calmer. Thank you!
[IG], 2007
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I am falling apart. It is a weird feeling. I am watching it happen. It is not a matter of whether I can prevent it or not. I have different pieces that I do not recognize. My body is changing as well. It is interesting to experience but I am afraid of what will happen when it is over. It may take some time in the process or it may happen in a brief moment and then I will not know me anymore. I will have to stand up and start again. I would know what to start. Maybe I could be watching the birds, walking the beach and stuff but I will be alone. Completely alone. I will belong to nobody and absolutely nothing would matter. It would not matter whether I exist or not...
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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Can a heart have two hearts? Can a soul have two souls? Can it split? Can it die alive? A change? And then who are you? Who are all the rest? Is change possible? What is the nature of men? All have a single heart, no evidence of soul. The sun rises in the morning. Shines. Then goes down. There may be moon. Uninhibited. And stars. Lonely. Distant. Cold. One lays naked. Eyes wide shut. Thoughtful? The sun rises again. Is it the same sun? We don't know. It runs free. Colors our faces, our dresses. We can see. Smile. Walk. Love? Are we the same? Metamorphosis. Life. Moving. Changing. Surprising. Scary. Around us. We change. The days that we live in change. Things we touch change.... We grow. Old. Young at heart? How to change without changing.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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Soul mate? A soul mate? My soul mate? I? Soul? A soul? A mate? Mate...Sole? Alone? Self? Selfish? Life! A life? A wife? A. Aye. Who are you? You are who I know. I know who you are. You know who I am. I am who you know.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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So what is the truth? Is life fun? Is the meaning of life to be fun? Would you rather have fun or a life? Does it hurt you to be true to yourself? Do you dress and smile to have fun? Do you despise being naked and tearful? I can see the stars in your tears. They shine in the darkness. Sometimes. Sometimes, I loose you from sight. It is lonely in the darkness, but you can hear your heart. Can you hear it beat? Doesn't it make you move? Yes, dancer. A dancer in the dark. Beautiful. Lvui.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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I was looking at the sky. Blue all over. Saphire was my dress and the stars were shining in my eyes. My hair brilliant with dew. My feet, naked, lightly touched the ground. The sun crawled tickling on my back. In front of me, the sea lay calm. Blue in the deepest. I was quiet. Happy, I ran with the wind. The unknown I chased. On my way, I saw flowers and mu and princesses and witches and naked men and knights and foxes and lions and rats and snakes.
Is it raining?
Listen.
You don't exist without a heart.
[IG], 2007
Is it raining?
Listen.
You don't exist without a heart.
[IG], 2007
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I'd rather be a wild cat. They purr. And they are dangerous. They kill with a roar. To eat. Smile is the pattern on their face. Cats are secretive and stealthy but true. Fast and fearless and wild. Untamable and true. Maybe beautiful. Try to be a cat like that.
[IG], 2007
[IG], 2007
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- Do you like oranges?
- Maybe
- Orange or green?
- Yellow
- Would you like one?
- Only if it is red inside
- Don't you think they all are?
- Damn it!
- Do you like them sweet?
- Not too sweet
- Do you like them ripe?
- I would like a few
- How many can you eat?
- One, potentially
[IG], 2007
- Maybe
- Orange or green?
- Yellow
- Would you like one?
- Only if it is red inside
- Don't you think they all are?
- Damn it!
- Do you like them sweet?
- Not too sweet
- Do you like them ripe?
- I would like a few
- How many can you eat?
- One, potentially
[IG], 2007
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- What are you gonna do now?
- Close my eyes
- Why?
- To choke the pain
- And then?
- Open my eyes
- Why?
- To cry
- Your eyes will close only when you die
[IG], 2007
- Close my eyes
- Why?
- To choke the pain
- And then?
- Open my eyes
- Why?
- To cry
- Your eyes will close only when you die
[IG], 2007
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- What do yo want?
- Peace
- What color?
- Blue
- How much can you take?
- An eye-full
- Can you feel it?
- On my lips
- Can you taste it?
- In my heart
[IG], 2007
- Peace
- What color?
- Blue
- How much can you take?
- An eye-full
- Can you feel it?
- On my lips
- Can you taste it?
- In my heart
[IG], 2007
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In the middle of the night,
dreams are starring around.
Far away from people sight,
clothes are lying on the ground.
In the middle of the night,
a smile :smile:
Happy lying on the ground,
you beside me :heart:
[IG], 2007
dreams are starring around.
Far away from people sight,
clothes are lying on the ground.
In the middle of the night,
a smile :smile:
Happy lying on the ground,
you beside me :heart:
[IG], 2007
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Is it true that they can tell who you are by looking at your writing? Who are these people? Don't they have a life of their own? Do I know them, too?
Is it true that kisses are pieces of heart? How big are the hearts of people? Are they all just patches of kisses? Are tears the kisses of love? Have you ever met her?
Is it true that loneliness is scary? What do men fear? Can you be brave in the world alone? Is it worth it? What's the price? Can you melt it into lava and dive into the middle of the earth?
Is it true about questions? What about questions? Can you forget who you are? Can you love without questions? Are questions the essence of love? What texture! And color!
Know me. Kiss me. Keep me. Love me.
Question all you want!
Never life and death!
[IG], 2007
Is it true that kisses are pieces of heart? How big are the hearts of people? Are they all just patches of kisses? Are tears the kisses of love? Have you ever met her?
Is it true that loneliness is scary? What do men fear? Can you be brave in the world alone? Is it worth it? What's the price? Can you melt it into lava and dive into the middle of the earth?
Is it true about questions? What about questions? Can you forget who you are? Can you love without questions? Are questions the essence of love? What texture! And color!
Know me. Kiss me. Keep me. Love me.
Question all you want!
Never life and death!
[IG], 2007
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Fear beats at the door
Shutters sigh and weep at night
I look - you are there
[CT], 2007
Shutters sigh and weep at night
I look - you are there
[CT], 2007
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White clouds to clear blue
Orange leaves sleep on cool earth
Berries patient for spring.
[CT], 2007
Orange leaves sleep on cool earth
Berries patient for spring.
[CT], 2007
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Eons of seconds
Ticking evenly in silence
Waiting not at all.
[CT], 2007
Ticking evenly in silence
Waiting not at all.
[CT], 2007
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Unseen clear blue sky
Unfathomed deep blue sea
She is my best friend.
[CT], 2007
Unfathomed deep blue sea
She is my best friend.
[CT], 2007
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Static variable
User orders chaos
Zero one zero.
[CT], 2007
User orders chaos
Zero one zero.
[CT], 2007
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Three laws of robot
Perfect, flawless, sacrosanct
Made by man for him.
[CT], 2007
Perfect, flawless, sacrosanct
Made by man for him.
[CT], 2007
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1: imperfect in their thoughts
1: inviolable in their dreams
0: catastrophic error - abort?
[IG], 2007
1: inviolable in their dreams
0: catastrophic error - abort?
[IG], 2007
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No map or compass,
Stars above and ground below
Pigeons find their way.
[CT], 2007
Stars above and ground below
Pigeons find their way.
[CT], 2007
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Orienteering
Beginning and end are known
Path is adventure.
[CT], 2007
Beginning and end are known
Path is adventure.
[CT], 2007
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My head is spinning, shaken -
What is freedom, when one is human;
What is love, when one is mortal;
What is hope, when one is old;
What is death, when one is lonely....
[IG], 2007
What is freedom, when one is human;
What is love, when one is mortal;
What is hope, when one is old;
What is death, when one is lonely....
[IG], 2007